Recite the 'Happy Verse'

Bismillah Walhamdulillah..

I am still able to breath the air in, still able to consume food and drinks , still able to get enough sleep, still able to accompany my hubby, still able to read and gain knowledge..oh I just realised that this list goes on and on..mashaALLAH..

in this hardest time..I could still write a list of things I'm thankful for..including moving to our new apartment..soon..:) Alhamdulillah...

Lately I've been worrying a lot!
Hubby's Final Exams,
My own studies and exams,
with anemia and fainting spells,
missed tuition classes and unsatisfactory attendances in class.

and currently
am having Placenta Praevia Type 2..
to travel back to malaysia or not..

Last few days have been very hectic as  we were forced to make decisions despite my need to completely rest in bed..

and I realised how weak I was, how weak we humans are, as we do not even have the strength to decide..I remember just putting my hands up for dua and just 'feeling' the Presence and Greatness of ALLAH.

and reading the Quran just for the sake of submitting, and not gaining anything more than just to feel the submission..

For only that made me feel better..

Alhamdulillah with the help of Hubby and my parents, also The OBGYN Specialists, we were able to come to a decision. However even that decision is doubtful.

and to have so many doubts coming..one after another.. I decided and vowed to just stop worrying and just to recite the happy verse loudly or silently,

"Hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakeel, ni'mal maula wa ni'mannaseer"

For I am unable to for see the future,
I am not capable to predict anything,
I will stop worrying cause I am only Human,
and I submit everything only to You,
because I so know that everything is written,
and everything is for the better, the best!
Just let me know that You are near,
and allow me to feel that everything is under control,
I shall not worry,
and I will be happy.

May the rainbows reveal themselves soon,insyaALLAH..
Ummi, baby and daddy are reciting this ' happy verse',

what about you?

My First Surprise Baby Shower!!

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

This post is soo long overdue.. but I promised myself to write about it no matter what, because it tells a story of celebrating babies, food and most importantly friendship!

Last Friday, I was invited to Beit HK for lunch, Aisyah told me that Najwa was gonna make laksa penang as I was craving for it..So I was more than happy to have lunch with them that day..However my stove was having a few problems of its own that I had to delay our lunch date because Hubby's lunch was not ready yet..Alhamdulillah I managed to prepare a very simple lunch and rushed off to the HKs immediately..Hubby told me several times not to prepare his lunch on that day but I felt guilty leaving him 'lunchless'..hehe..

I had to climb 5 flights of stairs!! i really took my time...one flight at a time, as I just recovered from a fever..I had less energy to literally do anything at a high speed..haha..however that climb was worth it when Najwa opened the door and I saw sooo many girls shouting out 'surprise!!!!'

I was so shocked and was so close to tears..but I became tearless due to too much crying before this..and i thought this is moment to celebrate not to cry over! hahahha...so the tears remained unteared.. :)

There were yummy food served, from laksa penang, to laksam, to deserts like Duta's famous chocolate cake and nutella cupcakes by Hanim, and a kind of oat shortbread by Ihsan..Of course the main menu were prepared by masterchef Najwa Anis and the gang..haha..MashaALLAH..I had soo may choices of food!!! Baby could not have been happier..hahah..

After that Nurul and Aisyah conducted baby shower games..and we all had a good laugh..

Never to forget the decorations beautifully done...by Nuna and the HKs..they were soo creative!!

all in all, I had a good time..
I thank all my friends- those who planned, those who helped, those who came and celebrated, you kno who you are..:)

I thank ALLAH for Loving  me so much as He Showered me with the love of my friends..at times when I count my tears more than my smiles..really only ALLAH Knows my condition at that time and how all of you have brightened my rainy , stormy days...

The love of my life.

Bismillahirrahmaanerraheem,

This post is a lil thank you note to these people, who have literally carried me on their shoulders ( still carrying now even with extra extra pounds, haha )with nothing but smiles on their faces.. and they are :-

My Hubby 

 Thanks for always doing your best thruout our marriage, taking care of me every single day. 

Being my strength and support, baring and complimenting my infinty of weakness.

.Making me laugh even during the hardest times..

I am at every second of my life amazed by how ALLAH Completes me by sending you as my partner.

I love you a million times.

My Parents

Thanks for always striving! to give whatever you have and only the best for me.

I really hope to become as good as the both of you to my children later on.

No one can ever replace your undying and unconditional love towards your children.

Sometimes I feel bad that I may have not been the child that makes you happy today,

but i pray that ALLAH Lift all your sins and Love you just the way you loved me when I was little,

and may He Grant you only the highest level of Jannah!

ameen.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

<3



Our Love Story..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

So as I have been planning, this post is supposed to be published.. However life is life and you're not living unless unpredictable things come your way..one after another..

However I'm glad everything is under control..Alhamdulillah..Thank You, the Story Writer.

Writing a post about our love story would take days but to simplify it, here's a little something that I wrote while preparing for the big day.. sort of like a summary to how it all started and how it was slowly progressing into marriage,and what I was hoping from the relationship from there on.. hope it tells the story well.. enjoy!!

Ceritakan tentang cita-cita dan cinta,

Dua kisah yang sama,

kerana masa depan itu,

bukan kita yang reka.

cuba rentasi awan,

selami semua lautan,

soalan masih tidak berjawapan,

akal fikiran bukan lagi berperanan.

Resah melanda jiwa,

dada berombak tanda curiga,

kemana harus diberitahu,

rasa hati yang ingin mengerti.

Ternyata pasti ada yang Mendengar,

Ternyata semua dalam TulisanNya,

nun jauh di tempat Mulia,

kisah hidup suka dan duka,

jawapan semua soalan pernah ditanya.

Sampai detik tibanya waktu,

disampaikan pesan buat manusia yang alpa,

berita gembira mencipta bahagia,

segala urusan berasal dariNya,

bukti kembali semua kepadaNya.

Urusan hamba di Tangan Tuan,

suluh telah pun hamba temukan,

andai ini hajatnya Tuan,

kecil tapak tangan, nyiru hamba tadahkan.

Saat ini saat pembuktian,

Tanda cinta pada Yang Menciptakan,

Dua hati seluruh jiwa,

di setiap nafas akan diperjuangkan, 

dalam rasa yang sentiasa,

mengintai-intai rahsia kasihNya.

so many things to share!

Bismillah Walhamdulillah!

It seems that this blog has not been updated for a very long time..
All thanks to my awesome skills of time management!

So it's been a while and so many events has passed that deserve to be documented..
I just came to realise that I should write anything that comes to my mind..or anything that I hold on to as a principle..so that I will still withhold those principles for as long as I need to..
Because I tend to forget!!
and I forget a lot... sobs..

but Alhamdulillah, there are always small whispers in the decent winds reminding me at the very edge of totally forgetting them...and not to forget to thank the loud voice that speaks out beside me whom I'm actually married to.. full full of reminders almost every second of my life,my dear husband..How much I'm thankful that I'm married to a persistent reminder, sometimes subtle, sometimes harsh, but always right when I needed them.. :)

So, as I said..too many things to write about..
I'll leave some pictures to accompany you till the next posts..soon, insyaALLAH.

posts to write about :-

1. Because I'm married and studying at the same time, I tend to tumble up and down thruout my days..therefore I should emphasize on, Why I decided to pursue Medicine.

2. Also we are expecting somebody to join our lives soon, insyaALLAH..and I'm hoping that his/ her room would look something like this...;) the post is gonna be about, my hopes are only on YOU.

too much eh?

3. Since the special person is on his/her way to arrive, I should not forget to document Our Love Story, before I get too busy focusing and preparing for the lil one..hehe..

INSYAALLAHU TA'ALA.

Give me Strength,

Give me strength,

Give me strength.

ameen, Ya Qawiyy..

till the next posts..:)

Oh Your Majesty..

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to look at the shady trees,

at the blooming flowers,

the fine soft sands,

I feel a certain happiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I journey across giant mountains,

or fly above dark blue seas,

or stand underneath a crushing waterfall,

I feel a certain humbleness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I look into the faces,

of human beings who are smiling,

of not only joy but also sincerity,

I feel a certain calmness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I enjoy a joke or two,

racing each other in a fun match,

with my family or friends,

I feel  a certain rejuvenation.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I listen to your Aayaat,

of creations of the earth and the skies above,

Of creations of Jannah and Jahannam,

I feel a certain terrifying shakiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to plan,

matching to yours or not,

I feel a certain of belief.

Oh Your Majesty,

If one day the skies loss their support,

and mountain crashes,

when stars no longer guide but fall and destroy,

and the flowers become dust in the wind,

when the day you've promised have come and unveiled.

Save my soul and let it fly,

let it fly away from the destruction and way up high,

lighten my journey on that day of darkness,

be  my eyes of those seeing not blind,

be my heart of those glooming not putrefied,

be my companions of my loved ones and the righteous ones,

be my companions and I in a garden of flowers,

those that are eternal amidst the wells of waters,

Be on that day that we prostrate,

and only look up to end the blindness of todays, tomorrows and yesterdays,

only to look up to the view of,

YOU, 

Oh Your Majesty!

a warm, bright, home library..

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem...

I've always wanted a small area for me to treasure my books that I have collected since young..I managed to get my parents to buy me a huge bookshelf, but sadly it was left in our old house.. :(

I long to have a comfortable home library filled with books!!

Just like these...

this room looks verrryyy cosy..I'm imagining myself writing a letter on that desk or reading a good book to sleep on the sofa..with my lil one reading aloud one of his favourite storybooks :)

 or the books could have a special storage room which looks soooo exclusive like this..I'm imagining my lil ones having mengaji classes in there..!!

or the books could just be a part of the family area..where the whole family can relax and gather, and if anyone wishes, may pick up a good book to read..!!

insyaALLAH.. i really wish to have these book areas if not a library in my own home..:)

when will that be?

i don't really know..

but I'll keep praying..

insyaALLAHU TA'ALA.. :)

p/s: for the mean time, i'll learn to keep my books organized instead of being left lying around everywhere I go that really annoys my parents then, and now my hubby..erkzz..