The love of my life.

Bismillahirrahmaanerraheem,

This post is a lil thank you note to these people, who have literally carried me on their shoulders ( still carrying now even with extra extra pounds, haha )with nothing but smiles on their faces.. and they are :-

My Hubby 

 Thanks for always doing your best thruout our marriage, taking care of me every single day. 

Being my strength and support, baring and complimenting my infinty of weakness.

.Making me laugh even during the hardest times..

I am at every second of my life amazed by how ALLAH Completes me by sending you as my partner.

I love you a million times.

My Parents

Thanks for always striving! to give whatever you have and only the best for me.

I really hope to become as good as the both of you to my children later on.

No one can ever replace your undying and unconditional love towards your children.

Sometimes I feel bad that I may have not been the child that makes you happy today,

but i pray that ALLAH Lift all your sins and Love you just the way you loved me when I was little,

and may He Grant you only the highest level of Jannah!

ameen.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

<3



Our Love Story..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

So as I have been planning, this post is supposed to be published.. However life is life and you're not living unless unpredictable things come your way..one after another..

However I'm glad everything is under control..Alhamdulillah..Thank You, the Story Writer.

Writing a post about our love story would take days but to simplify it, here's a little something that I wrote while preparing for the big day.. sort of like a summary to how it all started and how it was slowly progressing into marriage,and what I was hoping from the relationship from there on.. hope it tells the story well.. enjoy!!

Ceritakan tentang cita-cita dan cinta,

Dua kisah yang sama,

kerana masa depan itu,

bukan kita yang reka.

cuba rentasi awan,

selami semua lautan,

soalan masih tidak berjawapan,

akal fikiran bukan lagi berperanan.

Resah melanda jiwa,

dada berombak tanda curiga,

kemana harus diberitahu,

rasa hati yang ingin mengerti.

Ternyata pasti ada yang Mendengar,

Ternyata semua dalam TulisanNya,

nun jauh di tempat Mulia,

kisah hidup suka dan duka,

jawapan semua soalan pernah ditanya.

Sampai detik tibanya waktu,

disampaikan pesan buat manusia yang alpa,

berita gembira mencipta bahagia,

segala urusan berasal dariNya,

bukti kembali semua kepadaNya.

Urusan hamba di Tangan Tuan,

suluh telah pun hamba temukan,

andai ini hajatnya Tuan,

kecil tapak tangan, nyiru hamba tadahkan.

Saat ini saat pembuktian,

Tanda cinta pada Yang Menciptakan,

Dua hati seluruh jiwa,

di setiap nafas akan diperjuangkan, 

dalam rasa yang sentiasa,

mengintai-intai rahsia kasihNya.

so many things to share!

Bismillah Walhamdulillah!

It seems that this blog has not been updated for a very long time..
All thanks to my awesome skills of time management!

So it's been a while and so many events has passed that deserve to be documented..
I just came to realise that I should write anything that comes to my mind..or anything that I hold on to as a principle..so that I will still withhold those principles for as long as I need to..
Because I tend to forget!!
and I forget a lot... sobs..

but Alhamdulillah, there are always small whispers in the decent winds reminding me at the very edge of totally forgetting them...and not to forget to thank the loud voice that speaks out beside me whom I'm actually married to.. full full of reminders almost every second of my life,my dear husband..How much I'm thankful that I'm married to a persistent reminder, sometimes subtle, sometimes harsh, but always right when I needed them.. :)

So, as I said..too many things to write about..
I'll leave some pictures to accompany you till the next posts..soon, insyaALLAH.

posts to write about :-

1. Because I'm married and studying at the same time, I tend to tumble up and down thruout my days..therefore I should emphasize on, Why I decided to pursue Medicine.

2. Also we are expecting somebody to join our lives soon, insyaALLAH..and I'm hoping that his/ her room would look something like this...;) the post is gonna be about, my hopes are only on YOU.

too much eh?

3. Since the special person is on his/her way to arrive, I should not forget to document Our Love Story, before I get too busy focusing and preparing for the lil one..hehe..

INSYAALLAHU TA'ALA.

Give me Strength,

Give me strength,

Give me strength.

ameen, Ya Qawiyy..

till the next posts..:)

Oh Your Majesty..

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to look at the shady trees,

at the blooming flowers,

the fine soft sands,

I feel a certain happiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I journey across giant mountains,

or fly above dark blue seas,

or stand underneath a crushing waterfall,

I feel a certain humbleness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I look into the faces,

of human beings who are smiling,

of not only joy but also sincerity,

I feel a certain calmness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I enjoy a joke or two,

racing each other in a fun match,

with my family or friends,

I feel  a certain rejuvenation.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I listen to your Aayaat,

of creations of the earth and the skies above,

Of creations of Jannah and Jahannam,

I feel a certain terrifying shakiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to plan,

matching to yours or not,

I feel a certain of belief.

Oh Your Majesty,

If one day the skies loss their support,

and mountain crashes,

when stars no longer guide but fall and destroy,

and the flowers become dust in the wind,

when the day you've promised have come and unveiled.

Save my soul and let it fly,

let it fly away from the destruction and way up high,

lighten my journey on that day of darkness,

be  my eyes of those seeing not blind,

be my heart of those glooming not putrefied,

be my companions of my loved ones and the righteous ones,

be my companions and I in a garden of flowers,

those that are eternal amidst the wells of waters,

Be on that day that we prostrate,

and only look up to end the blindness of todays, tomorrows and yesterdays,

only to look up to the view of,

YOU, 

Oh Your Majesty!

a warm, bright, home library..

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem...

I've always wanted a small area for me to treasure my books that I have collected since young..I managed to get my parents to buy me a huge bookshelf, but sadly it was left in our old house.. :(

I long to have a comfortable home library filled with books!!

Just like these...

this room looks verrryyy cosy..I'm imagining myself writing a letter on that desk or reading a good book to sleep on the sofa..with my lil one reading aloud one of his favourite storybooks :)

 or the books could have a special storage room which looks soooo exclusive like this..I'm imagining my lil ones having mengaji classes in there..!!

or the books could just be a part of the family area..where the whole family can relax and gather, and if anyone wishes, may pick up a good book to read..!!

insyaALLAH.. i really wish to have these book areas if not a library in my own home..:)

when will that be?

i don't really know..

but I'll keep praying..

insyaALLAHU TA'ALA.. :)

p/s: for the mean time, i'll learn to keep my books organized instead of being left lying around everywhere I go that really annoys my parents then, and now my hubby..erkzz..

Adam is 10!!

Bismillah Walhamdulillah.. <3

It seems that my little (baby) Brother, Muhammad Adam Daniel has turned 10 on the 27th of December..really wish I could be with him to celebrate his big 10! hehe..but it's okay..he looks happy enuff without me..:)

However, I thought I should dedicate this post to him..:)
Not because I love him more that any of my siblings, (I am very sure about this) becuase if they get into fights, I get into various sides. not only Adam's.. hehe..

But I think this entry goes to him because, I am a bit older that I can recall the moments of him growing up :)

so here goes...

I still remember those times,

When Kakak and I would ask Mama desperately,

pestering Papa of how much we wanted,

 another little baby,to join our family,

and then how mama's face would look so tired,

to repeatedly  give a one and only answer,

"PRAY".

Ask from ALLAH. :)

I still remember how I doubted my prayers,

But I did pray anyway,

so that ALLAH Would Kindly Give us,

another bundle of joy.

I still remember that night,

Mama and Papa brought home a film,

a picture of an embryo,

I remember how frightened I was,

when papa said,

look, what is that picture is that?

It looked so formal that I thought mama was sick,

but then mama said,

it's a baby.

I still remember how we all shouted,

of pure joy,and gratefulness,

so ALLAH Was Listening afterall!

I still remember how the family was so worried,

about how the baby's gonna turn out,

I'm very sure Mama had a very hard time,

deciding to keep the baby.

I still remember how we payed a visit to the Great Kaabah,

and I would not miss praying for your safety,

so that you would come out a normal healthy baby,

Let the baby be normal.

that was kind of it.

I still remember the moment we found out you were a boy,

we started scrambling through the pages of baby's names.

I would accompany Mama shopping at Mom's care or Mothercare,

How we eagerly waited for your arrival,

anxiously happy.

I still remember that day Mama was admitted to the hospital,

I would stand close to the phone waiting for Papa to call,

how Mama was in pain that Papa asked us to pray,

and then another phone call,

saying that the baby has arrived,

and he was perfectly healthy.

I still remember that time when I thanked Allah so much,

and I thought,

wow, another prayer answered!

Alhamdulillah.

I still remember how excited the family was,

though there were struggles,

mostly Mama and Papa had to go through,

taking care of your asthma,

through nights and days.

I still remember the day we registered you,

into your kindergarten,

watching you perform in your school concerts,

watching you grow,

and speak english so fluently,

how smart you are,

and how talkative you are..

And now it's been 10 years of a great journey,

we have travelled together with the boy,

a blessing from ALLAH,

who always makes us smile,

(when he's not naughty)

the one who's most kissed, most hugged,

who clears our minds,

whenever problems interfere,

with that cute little voice,

speaking so wisely as if he is older,

waking up very early,

and waking everyone up,

reminding how exciting life is.

So you're all grown up,

you're 10 years old!

We still clearly see you as our cute little baby brother,

my baby buuubuu,

your birth was a blessing to our family,

because of you,

the family keep its peace,

and learn lessons of life,

though sometimes we fall, we know,

there is still a little cute voice that would entertain us.

there is always that little (now taller) boy that I could run to and hug,

and chase around just to kiss him.

Oh Adam,

How much of a blessing you are,

Please stay cute and fun!

But Allah Created you to grow,

And if you must grow,

please grow wiser and smarter,

please grow handsome,

please remember to always be our reminder,

of how much Allah Loves us,

please amaze us with your continuous stories,

please grow stronger inside and out,

Please grow to be a hero of the ummah,

Please grow to be the best of Allah's servants,

insyaALLAH.

Thank you Allah, for a brother, a baby to the family, an entertainer, and a reminder, a holder of our homes, for whenever we are sad, or even when we cry, he is surely to make us smile again. Please make this blessing eternal, till the end of time and till Jannah. 

ameen.

Happy 10th Birthday, Muhammad Adam Daniel b Md Rosli.

We love you..

so so much.

Sebelum Cahaya..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem,

It was back then, during those time I just finished high school that I heard to this song on the radio. It was on this serene night, and I was emotionally connected to it!

Yesterday, as I was choosing to have a background wave in this small apartment, I decided to choose to listen to the song again, and it was nostalgic..

Once again the lyrics, brought me to a state of numbness.. :)

I have no idea how the writer really meant while writing this song, but the first time I heard this song, I interpreted it as this..

Ku teringat, hati, 

Yang bertabur, mimpi, 

Kemana kau pergi, cinta

Perjalanan sunyi, 

Yang kau tempuh sendiri, 

Kuatkanlah hati, cinta

I imagined as if someone finds me feeling so lonely 

and asks me where have I been that I have strayed, 

and tells me to be strong,

 and calls me Cinta. showing how I am being loved...

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/letto/sebelum_cahaya.html ]

[Chorus:]

Ingatkan engkau kepada, 

Embun pagi bersahaja, 

Yang menemani mu, 

Sebelum cahaya

Ingatkan engkau kepada, 

Angin yang berhembus mesra, 

Yang 'kan membelai mu, cinta

Two interpretations for this verse.

1st 

He then reminds me of the morning dew that comes earlier in the day while I am waiting for the sun, also the soft wind that blows thru my hair- somehow He is telling me that I am not alone, there are many other things that are keeping me company..only they are too subtle, that I always overlook. thus, this reminder.

2nd

 Is only directed to this line "Yang Menemanimu Sebelum Cahaya". This line reminds me of the 9 months I spent in my mother's womb, so so dark without any light, If I were to be there right now, I would have been terrified in the darkness, But there was always company, that was with me thruout the 9 months, before it was my time to be born, to see the light.

SubhanALLAH, for it is of ALLAH'S Wisdom that He was there with me, accompaying thru the darkness,making sure I was not scared, in His very own special way.. before i even knew what the light was..

SubhanALLAH, for it is of ALLAH'S Mercy that He has created the subtle morning dew, or the soft soft wind that holds me thruout my loneliness if I ever felt down and low during this journey, for He has Created my family and friends, my teachers and students, my comfortable life, ..just to be patient waiting for the sun to rise, just as sure as it will, despite of me always being sceptical about  it.

Kekuatan hati, 

Yang berpegang janji, 

Genggamlah tangan ku, cinta

Ku tak akan pergi, 

Meninggalkan mu sendiri, 

Temani hati mu cinta

And then here, I imagined how He is saying, to hold on tight to His Religion, And He is the One who will never leave me alone, always there, always here, right beside my heart,taking care of it, or rather, just within it...

I enjoy this song a lot, because somehow the chorus is repeated over and over and over again, as if, it is really to remind me of how close He is..of how much He Knows how hard life is, but how He Has sent so many good things and blessings to show His Presence and His Love in my life.

Forgive me when I forget, Oh Forgive me when I whine..