The Name and its tale..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem...

Dearest Muhammad Mashary Zidane,

You are (of course! ) asleep now..and Ummi is going to dedicate this post to you, and your name.

First and foremost let's start with 

Muhammad

Of course this is the name of our Beloved Prophet SAW,

This name was given to you by your Jiddi.

He actually insisted that the name be part of yours,

so that you will keep on carrying the virtue of best akhlaq and being close to ALLAH,

and so Alhamdulillah, 

you are a Muhammad ! 

Mashary

You were named after the Syeikh Mishary Rashid Al-Afasy,

His melodious Quran recitation would melt the hearts of almost everyone.

Know that you were first named Mishary but then while Ummi & Walid were doing some researching we found out that Mishary is the pronounciation in Saudi Arabia while the Egyptians pronouce it as Mashary.

It is not really a problem because it is an' A'jamiy' word which means it is not arabic, 

similar to Adam, Ibraheem, Ismail.

an A'jamiy word carries its meaning according to the culture or the locality, therefore,

Mashary has several different meanings :-

1. A speeding arrow

2. The one who 'sells' himself to ALLAH

3. Sweet

Zidane

Of course your Walid chose this beautiful name for you,

and it means Progressive, and it is an arabic word. :)

Zidane is the name of the famous footballer, and I remember Walid saying that Zidane was a playmaker and hence he progressed himself and helped others to do the same too.

Which is very interesting,

since you are the first son, and first grandson in both familes. 

So , 

Muhammad Mashary Zidane

bin

Mohd Aimanuddin

If anyone hears your name, many will think that we have very high expectations for you..

However, these names are merely just wonderful prayers that we call you with, 

just so that you become if not like them, better than them in your own unique ways.

We believe that you will discover your talents later on and that we will support them with our all, insyaALLAH.

It really doesnt matter which field you are good in, 

we will try our best not to stand between you and your dreams in the future.

may you be a footballer, a qari, or an imaam, a doctor, or a pilot, or a teacher, or an entertainer..

We only want you to become the nearest you can get to your GOD, in anyway you can find.

and when Ummi & Walid says goodbye (just for awhile)

Please ask ALLAH to erase our sins and send Rahmaat to our souls,

and insyaALLAH we will meet again in Jannatul Firdaus.

ameen, ameen, ameen..

We Love you with all our hearts,

Ummi & Walid

p/s :  always remember The One who actually named you was ALLAH SUBHANAHU WATAALA.

Alhamdulillah for You have Created a beautiful boy and Named him beautifully for us.

SubhanALLAH

ALLAHU AKBAR.

I dream to..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

So, I can only start to dream when Mr Tiny Weeny with A Big Heart goes off to dreamland!! 

MashaALLAH, coming to the age of 3 months old has given our Zidane so many possibilities, physically, emotionally and also spiritually.

little update on Zidane (since I'm an Ummi..hehe)

Once he's awake, there's no way that he stays silent or plays alone lying on his back.. 

He always has to get up! and about!

So it's either watching youtube videos or singing weird songs with Ummi ( I now found a new talent, I compose baby songs!! spontaneously!! and the person who 'loves' it more than my baby is his Walid..hahahaha, sorry you have to bear with this..) 

or!

he enjoys his acrobatic time with Walid..

Alhamdulillah he enjoys both equally..

so Ummi and Walid can take turns entertaining our new entertainer..hehehe..

and back to my dream !

I dream to have a gathering of only girls!

something like a weekly or a fortnightly get-together..

where we can chit chat and talk about almost anything!!

Islam-based..

say we pick a topic, 

BOOKS.

then every girl will have an opportunity to share her favourite book with us and then let us know about how she relates it to Islam as a way of life.

or another topic FASHION

then we discuss on how fashion is relevant in Islam.

I really want the discussion to be a real discussion where everyone has a say 

and can voice out their own ideas.

However in the end, there'll be a wrap up by an educated Syariah Advisor so that we won't come up or go home with weird ideass..haha

At the end of the gathering we can have a live performance by some of the talented girls, maybe we could sing, or play an instrument,or read a poem just to chill while savoring some yummy dishes..

My idea is to get together just for a while, say 3 hours max..to get to know each other, and then learn at least a small something about Islam. 

We are always too busy with school and school and..schoool..that sometimes we forget to allocate some time to learn more about this Deen. 

I plan to learn it not academically based,

but more of how to put Islam into your life,

as a way of life.. :)

HOW WONDERFUL !!!

I have dreamt so long but have not yet found the strength to do it..

My concerns are :-

Will there be anyone interested ??

Who is willing to become the 'talented girls' ??

Who is willing to become our Syariah Advisor ??

Where do we get our Financial source from ??

 

and finally 

Are YOU sharing my dream ??

:)

for those in Lololooove..

Bismillah Walhamdulillah,

I am now currently sitting on the chilly marbles next to two sleeping beauties. It is rather peaceful tonight, especially because I have finished STEP no 2 of my pediatrics exam and STEP no 3 will be on Friday. and that's still a long way to go. Or so I think it is..haha..

So, I have decided to write this post due to some great news that I have received recently, of my bffs, on their road to that blessed union of marriage. And they are pretty( very!!) concerned about keeping their relationship a blessed one till they are officially married. Alhamdulillah and Congratulations in advance!

On that congratulation note, here is also a note for you girls to be extra careful. I was once in your situation and I totally understand all the temptations you are experiencing. So I am just going to share some advise though of course I'm not even near to being qualified to give advise, but hey, as a friend, why not right?

So, being engaged, formally or informally gives you the curiosity to get to know Mr Fiance (Mr F) more. and of course being in love makes you feel that you have to share everything with him! Happy times, sad times, some secrets of yours, and this makes you feel like you need to contact him every single day to sort of summarize all the events that happened to you in that day.

See, at first, things would seem pretty simple. But then the devilish Shaytaan will always be happy to drop by your conversation, and things might progress not for the better but for worse. Of course it won't happen over one text message or one phone call. But, as Shaytaan builds his house in your heart, first he brings his equipment, then they put up the walls, then their furniture, and then they happily dwell. in your heart. yes, the place only for ALLAH.

I am going to give you a simple formula and really hope that it would be able to help you just as much as it helped me.Here goes.

What you want (call to ask for his help) = x

What you hope to achieve (him helping you) = y

So, if you do call him, you will most possibly get your Y.

However if you recite Lailahaillallah and then put it to action you will definitely

 (don't trust me, but trust ALLAH) get a set from A-Z or even sometimes you'll get an # or & or ^, 

things beyond what you can imagine. like you get a free loading van to help move your things!!!

This formula has worked for me several times. I'm going to give you a few examples to make things simpler.

1. I really wanted to call my Fiancee to tell him about the Quran Course that I went to. All the amazing details that stopped my heart. But the I chose not to. and to my surprise, He has also gained those amazing from who knows where..not even with me telling him. huhm.

2. I really wanted to buy a dress but it was not really aurat covering or was it a bit too tight. I left it because of ALLAH, and next thing was I found a 10 times more beautiful dress that totally covers up and was much more cheaper.

3. Was really craving for Mc D. but said NO. Someone bought it to me for free the very next hour!!!

I think you get the point now.

You just have to say NO. or Lailahaillallah!

and the effects of you not pursuing what you wanted so much will only give you soo much more..and some times more that what you wanted. Sometimes even surprises.

I love surprises especially if it's from HIM. and it's to tell you that you've done a superb job. Isn't that more comforting than having your Mr F listening to all your problems, and sometimes they even might turn out to become misunderstandings and unwanted fights.

I wish the best for each of you and your Fiancees.

May ALLAH be the nearest to your soul than anyone else.

also may the shaytaan be the most furthest from you.

say Lailahaillallah.

act on it,

and you get the best of 'both worlds'.

I love you fillah.

so much that I would even teach Mashary to pray for Ummi's friends once he's able to.

The day will come and you'll both be very proud that you have proven that Allah Matters the most, though you are constantly being tested, insyaALLAH.

A Studying Mother.

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem.

Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Aalamin for a beautiful Friday.

The Boys (Walid and Mashary's Uncles) left for a day trip to Port Said after brunch leaving Mashary and Ummi with Ummujiddah Khyriyah at home. We pray that you guys have a safe trip and come back with lots of seafood!!! heheh..

Alhamdulillah for it has been a week since our family got reunited in Mansoura and this also means Ummi gets back to focusing on studies and exams.

only 7 days more to the Paediatrics written exam and I'm feeling quite nervous.However I will do my best to face the paper,smiling hopefully!!!.

It's true that the new academic year has not yet begun but I am already starting to feel very grateful that Mashary came to light up our lives while we arestill studying..

I've been inspired by so many amazing mothers who are great at work but also successful in being a mother!

I wish to be one of them insyaALLAH.

I am very happy that I get to spend a whole lot of time with my little darling while trying my best to finish reading up a topic or so.Since babies need a lot of attention, I am satisfied and thankful with the time given to me to be a mother to my son, that is to feed him, to bathe him, to talk to him, to play with him, to teach him, and to comfort him and put him to bed.

Of course, I also need some time to study but I think that being a mother before having to work gives us both more time to spend with each other, and this is verrryyy important not only to culture a healthy relationship but also in nurturing the baby's needs, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
Alhamdulillah.

The day will come when the time spent with my Little Mashary becomes less,
I really can't imagine that,
but I know I have to learn to put my trust in ALLAH,
and pray that He Educates Mashary by Sending 'His Angels' in the form of nursery caretakers,
school teachers, bus drivers, and many other important roles that Mashary will get to know in the future.

However, as for now, I will continue to give my 200% into making this boy the luckiest one, insyaALLAH.

May the milk, the hugs, the kisses, the songs we sing together, the talks we have that you enjoy so much, and the fun lessons we have make you a more confident person when you grow up.
And may some weakness of Ummi and Walid, make you a person of patience,
May you grow strong,inside and out, my love.
May The Creator Protect you always.

Ameen, Ya Rahmaan, Ya Raheem.

PD Vacay with Baby on board..

Bismillah Walhamdulillah

This time Jiddi and Jiddah took both, Ummi and Mashary to Port Dickson!

At first we were planning to go a bit further, but we opted to go to PD in the end. :)

The short vacation over the weekend was fun and in a a way, relaxing!

Here are some shots of Mashary's first trip to PD..(with loved ones!)

So, after checking in, Mashary decided to rest a bit then gave Ummi some amazing poses!

then while Ummi was praying, Mashary decided to give Jiddah this perfect shot!

Yes that's a roar!!!
and Yes that's the sea...!!

Unfortunately it rained cats and dogs, so no beach time for the day..

However the sun came up bright and shiny the next morning so we were off to the beach!!!

Khali Adam admiring the waves, this little 'baby' asked me if the waves were big enough for surfing..hehe

Jiddi and Cucu time.

the bodyguard of our trip!

smily faces, Jiddi checking over Mashary making sure he's smiling..hahaha

ALHAMDULILLAH we really enjoyed the short but breathtaking vacation, thanks to Jiddah for taking such good care of Mashary that Ummi could even sleep in..huah!

Thanks Jiddi and Jiddah for sponsoring this wonderful trip.

Thanks Khali Adam for being a superb bodyguard!!

Thanks Allah for Family, and the Sun,the Rain and the Sea.

SubhanALLAH!!

off-limits ?

Bismillahirrahmaaniraheem

Alhamdulillah, our little one has just fallen asleep, this time Ummi had to cuddle him to make him feel secure since Jiddah is not home.

I think he can definitely feel her absence that he had quite a tough time trying to sleep. 

May you have sweet sweet dreams, my Love.

Today, this post goes to my babies.

It is about having and understanding boundaries in life.

It is about being okay not to get what you want.

And it is crucially important to be okay.

and not to dwell or be frustrated.

and so my lecture begins,

Life, my dear is a very adventurous journey, where sometimes you have needs to be fulfilled.

However, some needs are just off-limits. 

Limits due to our religion, morality, financial support and others.

Examples are

you really want to go to that concert of your favourite band but you just can't.

you really want to get that yummy bite of McD's fries or cheese burger but you can't.

you really want to dress in Kate Middleton's dresses but of course you can't.

you really want to participate in a tournament that is on the same day of your  SPM seminar,and you can't.

It's also important to know that when you know what you want or you plan to do is off-limits, 

you'd better forget about it. it sounds simple,

 but really it is simple!

You just have to be strong enough to say NO to yourself. 

ok, this takes up a lot of strength,physicaly and mentally!! 

but that's why Ummi will always ask ALLAH to Grant you strength.

and the days will pass, and trust me, you will never feel remorse.

the days will pass and you will have missed the meal, or the concert, or buying something too expensive, and you will have forgotten about them. 

and you will be A-okay!

These temptations come quite often though.

So hold on tight to your faith and you'll make it thru,

you might make a mistake or two, that's okay,

as long as you learn the lesson of,

You cannot always get what you want.

Let's just focus on getting what we want in the hereafter, 'cause of course everything we have now is only temporary, 

everything will go away.surely.

So build your castle in the hereafter, wait, hold on now to get whatever you want later,eternally ! insyaALLAH.

Medicine vs. All-time favourite

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem,

I am writing this post solely to remind myself of why I decided to pursue Medicine.

Just so that I hold on tight to this path,

despite any challenges, surprises, along its way..

insyaALLAH.

The story began almost 5 years ago when I got my SPM Results.

and it did not allow me to pursue medicine here in Malaysia. Therefore, my hopes to become a doctor were almost shattered. I got an offer to do engineering instead. I was confused at that point as I believe that nothing is a coincident. Therefore there must be a reason to why engineering was offered to me. I got really confused on what I should do. 

And then, I came across the advertisement in the newspaper, and apparently, my results suit the qualifications required in Mansoura University, Egypt. After performing the magical Solat Istikharah, I remember only performing it once, after Isyaa.and I already got my answer. No. Not in my dreams. To me, my answers came with a sense of peace and calmness, it was as if I have found my path. and I don't feel worried or sad or curious about the choice, it was as if, I submitted and was ready to face it and journey thru it. Calm and confident. SubhanALLAH.

A lil reminder of how I used to hate the idea of becoming a doctor, beacuse of the workload, and the limited time I'll have to spend to do other fun things. It's as if I'm going to have to work hard throughout my life. Life is short, why not enjoy it??

Then comes another reason to why I decided to journey this path is because I went thru a course, ESQ Leadership Training in particular. and Alhamdulillah I had the opportunity to restate my mission, and that is to return safely to ALLAH SWT with a Sound Heart. sobs. InsyaALLAH.

And I also realised that I'll have to buy myself a ticket to enter Jannah, and in what way may I achieve that?

Then, I realised that I have to really work hard. like to really spend my time to only do the Ibaadaat as submission to ALLAH.One good deed can easily buy you a ticket to Jannah. However, as humans, we have no idea which good deed will ALLAH make a reason to buy that Golden Ticket.

I chose to do Medicine so that I could work hard. because only by working hard can I multiply my good deeds hoping! that ALLAH will count them as  sincere acts and save me from the hellfire. Naudzubillah. :(

So, a note to myself, whenever you think that Medicine or anything else is 'killing' you. Know that ALLAH is watching every action you do. and as long as you're sincere, it's a form of ibaadah. and never forget the Jannah, as that is the only place where you will get to rest,and be happy of course, Eternally.

So please, work hard, be sincere, face every challenge with leaps of faith..

Buying a ticket isnt that easy. so do your best to impress!

sobs.

sobs.sobs.sobs.

I really hope I can. 

ameen, Ya Samee'.

ALLAHU RABBUL 'AALAMEEN.

p/s:
when you feel tired and torn, just close your eyes and imagine the Jannah.your tears, sweat will be paid off one day. more than worth it!

psst:
you might even experience 'syurga sebelum Syurga' if ALLAH Wills it.

My all-time favourite :)

How much I love youuuuu.

Bismillah Walhamdulillah,

Mashary has his tummy full and is sleeping like a baby..It's funny how whenever he's asleep, I feel like I miss him so much that I wanna wake him up..haha.my lil son, may ALLAH Bless you always.

It's been almost a week since Hubby left to commence his studies starting with the Ophthalmology Posting. Hope he's enjoying it!

Of course, ALLAH Has Bestowed upon Mashary and I, Great blessings that we are still able to 'survive' during this separation, so far, ALHAMDULILLAH..
BUT,
nevertheless,
we still miss him dearly..

Not to forget our first anniversary celebrated very simply, with a cake and something really special, our first baby. I will still try to get you a gift anyways, despite knowing that love only is sufficient to make him smile..

Aiman, My Hubby, has been surprising me in so many different ways since our marriage. Not to mention there were also bad surprises (haha) but they were too few to compare to the super good ones.

After marriage I started to see so so sooo many things fall into place.
I remember the thoughts I had at different occasions saying, "oh, no wonder I'm married to him".

At times when I lose my temper, my sanity and when he hugs me tight and reminds me of God.

At times when I get sick and he's okay with a simple cereal and milk (or even biscuits and milo) for breakfast.

At times when I get too excited to cook him something special but turns out to be pretty bad, but he still has his grateful face on.

At times when I forget, and he never ever gets angry.

Those times when he tries his best to understand my crazy hormones,

when even I don't understand them myself.

Those times he suggests something really unexpected when I'm really tired.

Those times when he buys all my favourite food whenever he's away.

Those times when he stays firm on his idea to eliminate my false beliefs, and childish thinking.

Those times he remained calm when the plane was shaking thru the storms.

Those times he compromises, and respects so many opposing ideas.

and recently,
when he wakes up in the middle of the night for Mashary's burping sessions,
bathing and cleaning Mashary every morning,
changing Mashary's gooeeyest nappies right on time,
and singing Mashary's favourite lullaby (the Quran) while putting him to bed.

The list just goes on and on,

Thanks for always being my Hero,

Thanks for being the Best Walid in the world. (I'm sure Mashary will realise this while he is growing up!)

OH ALHAMDULILLAH, 

for I have not seen a better son to his parents, a better husband to his wife, and a better father to his son.

May ALLAH Bless our family with His Boundless Rahmaat,

and may we then be amongst those who fulfills the task of Rahmatan Lil 'aalameen.

Ameen

Our first bundle of joy..

Bismillah Walhamdulillah !!

I have just finished feeding Muhammad Mashary Zidane!! yet another achievement to make him full and sound asleep, for only ALLAH is the Provider for all his needs, our needs..

The birth of this little khalifa brought joy to us all, Alhamdulillah. It was an easy and fast delivery..

on September the 2nd, 2012

2 a.m

I felt the unbearable pangs of contractions..however when I tried to time them, they were not regular, hence not an alarming sign of labour..However the pain was not reduced by lying down, I couldn't go to sleep. I remember my hubby telling me to go to snooze off and the pain would go away, as usual. But this time it wasn't going away!

3a.m

Knocked on Mama's door to tell her bout the pain, however she told me I wasn't in labor cause the contractions were not regular.So I decided to go to the washroom and get ready for bed.but by then I was already bleeding.fresh blood. Mama timed my contractions and they started to become regular..1 every 5 minutes!

4am

Getting ready for the hospital. Alhamdulillah the baby's equipments were all ready and packed. The contraction pain was still bearable at this point. Papa had diarhea so only mama accompanied us to the hospital

5.30 am

Admitted to the labour room. The Midwife tried to measure the cervical opening but she couldn\t do it because there was fresh blood.She was concerned that my history of placenta praevia was still...praevia!!

Then she called the Dr and the Dr ordered to check it anyways. So up to this point the opening was 2cm.

6.45 am

Dr Ani came and burst up my water bag...it wasn\t really that painful..but it was scary..then the contractions started to become a liiiitle unbearable..Dr Ani had to give me pitocin..the name of drug that i would never forget to augment my contractions..and they became..MONSTROUS!!! After some discussion, I decided to take the miracle drug called the epidural..and Alhamdulillah, the pain decreased... :)

8.00 am

The midwife did another check up and I was already open by 8cm..

9.30 am

Our Little Caliph was born, with a slight cry, but then with eyes wandering around.ever so curious to his new surroundings.

Assalamualaika Ya Muhammad Mashary Zidane !!!

Ahlan wasahlan wa Marhaban Bik!

We welcome you with Tahmeed to the One who created you,

and may we become the parents who are the best in comforting you,

and may we become the best in introducing you to the One who Loves you the most,

ALLAHU SUBHANAHU WATAALA,

and may we be the best examples to familiarize you to the Nobleness of,

MUHAMMAD SAW.

Recite the 'Happy Verse'

Bismillah Walhamdulillah..

I am still able to breath the air in, still able to consume food and drinks , still able to get enough sleep, still able to accompany my hubby, still able to read and gain knowledge..oh I just realised that this list goes on and on..mashaALLAH..

in this hardest time..I could still write a list of things I'm thankful for..including moving to our new apartment..soon..:) Alhamdulillah...

Lately I've been worrying a lot!
Hubby's Final Exams,
My own studies and exams,
with anemia and fainting spells,
missed tuition classes and unsatisfactory attendances in class.

and currently
am having Placenta Praevia Type 2..
to travel back to malaysia or not..

Last few days have been very hectic as  we were forced to make decisions despite my need to completely rest in bed..

and I realised how weak I was, how weak we humans are, as we do not even have the strength to decide..I remember just putting my hands up for dua and just 'feeling' the Presence and Greatness of ALLAH.

and reading the Quran just for the sake of submitting, and not gaining anything more than just to feel the submission..

For only that made me feel better..

Alhamdulillah with the help of Hubby and my parents, also The OBGYN Specialists, we were able to come to a decision. However even that decision is doubtful.

and to have so many doubts coming..one after another.. I decided and vowed to just stop worrying and just to recite the happy verse loudly or silently,

"Hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakeel, ni'mal maula wa ni'mannaseer"

For I am unable to for see the future,
I am not capable to predict anything,
I will stop worrying cause I am only Human,
and I submit everything only to You,
because I so know that everything is written,
and everything is for the better, the best!
Just let me know that You are near,
and allow me to feel that everything is under control,
I shall not worry,
and I will be happy.

May the rainbows reveal themselves soon,insyaALLAH..
Ummi, baby and daddy are reciting this ' happy verse',

what about you?

My First Surprise Baby Shower!!

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

This post is soo long overdue.. but I promised myself to write about it no matter what, because it tells a story of celebrating babies, food and most importantly friendship!

Last Friday, I was invited to Beit HK for lunch, Aisyah told me that Najwa was gonna make laksa penang as I was craving for it..So I was more than happy to have lunch with them that day..However my stove was having a few problems of its own that I had to delay our lunch date because Hubby's lunch was not ready yet..Alhamdulillah I managed to prepare a very simple lunch and rushed off to the HKs immediately..Hubby told me several times not to prepare his lunch on that day but I felt guilty leaving him 'lunchless'..hehe..

I had to climb 5 flights of stairs!! i really took my time...one flight at a time, as I just recovered from a fever..I had less energy to literally do anything at a high speed..haha..however that climb was worth it when Najwa opened the door and I saw sooo many girls shouting out 'surprise!!!!'

I was so shocked and was so close to tears..but I became tearless due to too much crying before this..and i thought this is moment to celebrate not to cry over! hahahha...so the tears remained unteared.. :)

There were yummy food served, from laksa penang, to laksam, to deserts like Duta's famous chocolate cake and nutella cupcakes by Hanim, and a kind of oat shortbread by Ihsan..Of course the main menu were prepared by masterchef Najwa Anis and the gang..haha..MashaALLAH..I had soo may choices of food!!! Baby could not have been happier..hahah..

After that Nurul and Aisyah conducted baby shower games..and we all had a good laugh..

Never to forget the decorations beautifully done...by Nuna and the HKs..they were soo creative!!

all in all, I had a good time..
I thank all my friends- those who planned, those who helped, those who came and celebrated, you kno who you are..:)

I thank ALLAH for Loving  me so much as He Showered me with the love of my friends..at times when I count my tears more than my smiles..really only ALLAH Knows my condition at that time and how all of you have brightened my rainy , stormy days...

The love of my life.

Bismillahirrahmaanerraheem,

This post is a lil thank you note to these people, who have literally carried me on their shoulders ( still carrying now even with extra extra pounds, haha )with nothing but smiles on their faces.. and they are :-

My Hubby 

 Thanks for always doing your best thruout our marriage, taking care of me every single day. 

Being my strength and support, baring and complimenting my infinty of weakness.

.Making me laugh even during the hardest times..

I am at every second of my life amazed by how ALLAH Completes me by sending you as my partner.

I love you a million times.

My Parents

Thanks for always striving! to give whatever you have and only the best for me.

I really hope to become as good as the both of you to my children later on.

No one can ever replace your undying and unconditional love towards your children.

Sometimes I feel bad that I may have not been the child that makes you happy today,

but i pray that ALLAH Lift all your sins and Love you just the way you loved me when I was little,

and may He Grant you only the highest level of Jannah!

ameen.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

<3



Our Love Story..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem..

So as I have been planning, this post is supposed to be published.. However life is life and you're not living unless unpredictable things come your way..one after another..

However I'm glad everything is under control..Alhamdulillah..Thank You, the Story Writer.

Writing a post about our love story would take days but to simplify it, here's a little something that I wrote while preparing for the big day.. sort of like a summary to how it all started and how it was slowly progressing into marriage,and what I was hoping from the relationship from there on.. hope it tells the story well.. enjoy!!

Ceritakan tentang cita-cita dan cinta,

Dua kisah yang sama,

kerana masa depan itu,

bukan kita yang reka.

cuba rentasi awan,

selami semua lautan,

soalan masih tidak berjawapan,

akal fikiran bukan lagi berperanan.

Resah melanda jiwa,

dada berombak tanda curiga,

kemana harus diberitahu,

rasa hati yang ingin mengerti.

Ternyata pasti ada yang Mendengar,

Ternyata semua dalam TulisanNya,

nun jauh di tempat Mulia,

kisah hidup suka dan duka,

jawapan semua soalan pernah ditanya.

Sampai detik tibanya waktu,

disampaikan pesan buat manusia yang alpa,

berita gembira mencipta bahagia,

segala urusan berasal dariNya,

bukti kembali semua kepadaNya.

Urusan hamba di Tangan Tuan,

suluh telah pun hamba temukan,

andai ini hajatnya Tuan,

kecil tapak tangan, nyiru hamba tadahkan.

Saat ini saat pembuktian,

Tanda cinta pada Yang Menciptakan,

Dua hati seluruh jiwa,

di setiap nafas akan diperjuangkan, 

dalam rasa yang sentiasa,

mengintai-intai rahsia kasihNya.

so many things to share!

Bismillah Walhamdulillah!

It seems that this blog has not been updated for a very long time..
All thanks to my awesome skills of time management!

So it's been a while and so many events has passed that deserve to be documented..
I just came to realise that I should write anything that comes to my mind..or anything that I hold on to as a principle..so that I will still withhold those principles for as long as I need to..
Because I tend to forget!!
and I forget a lot... sobs..

but Alhamdulillah, there are always small whispers in the decent winds reminding me at the very edge of totally forgetting them...and not to forget to thank the loud voice that speaks out beside me whom I'm actually married to.. full full of reminders almost every second of my life,my dear husband..How much I'm thankful that I'm married to a persistent reminder, sometimes subtle, sometimes harsh, but always right when I needed them.. :)

So, as I said..too many things to write about..
I'll leave some pictures to accompany you till the next posts..soon, insyaALLAH.

posts to write about :-

1. Because I'm married and studying at the same time, I tend to tumble up and down thruout my days..therefore I should emphasize on, Why I decided to pursue Medicine.

2. Also we are expecting somebody to join our lives soon, insyaALLAH..and I'm hoping that his/ her room would look something like this...;) the post is gonna be about, my hopes are only on YOU.

too much eh?

3. Since the special person is on his/her way to arrive, I should not forget to document Our Love Story, before I get too busy focusing and preparing for the lil one..hehe..

INSYAALLAHU TA'ALA.

Give me Strength,

Give me strength,

Give me strength.

ameen, Ya Qawiyy..

till the next posts..:)

Oh Your Majesty..

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to look at the shady trees,

at the blooming flowers,

the fine soft sands,

I feel a certain happiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I journey across giant mountains,

or fly above dark blue seas,

or stand underneath a crushing waterfall,

I feel a certain humbleness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I look into the faces,

of human beings who are smiling,

of not only joy but also sincerity,

I feel a certain calmness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I enjoy a joke or two,

racing each other in a fun match,

with my family or friends,

I feel  a certain rejuvenation.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I listen to your Aayaat,

of creations of the earth and the skies above,

Of creations of Jannah and Jahannam,

I feel a certain terrifying shakiness.

Oh Your Majesty,

Everytime I try to plan,

matching to yours or not,

I feel a certain of belief.

Oh Your Majesty,

If one day the skies loss their support,

and mountain crashes,

when stars no longer guide but fall and destroy,

and the flowers become dust in the wind,

when the day you've promised have come and unveiled.

Save my soul and let it fly,

let it fly away from the destruction and way up high,

lighten my journey on that day of darkness,

be  my eyes of those seeing not blind,

be my heart of those glooming not putrefied,

be my companions of my loved ones and the righteous ones,

be my companions and I in a garden of flowers,

those that are eternal amidst the wells of waters,

Be on that day that we prostrate,

and only look up to end the blindness of todays, tomorrows and yesterdays,

only to look up to the view of,

YOU, 

Oh Your Majesty!

a warm, bright, home library..

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem...

I've always wanted a small area for me to treasure my books that I have collected since young..I managed to get my parents to buy me a huge bookshelf, but sadly it was left in our old house.. :(

I long to have a comfortable home library filled with books!!

Just like these...

this room looks verrryyy cosy..I'm imagining myself writing a letter on that desk or reading a good book to sleep on the sofa..with my lil one reading aloud one of his favourite storybooks :)

 or the books could have a special storage room which looks soooo exclusive like this..I'm imagining my lil ones having mengaji classes in there..!!

or the books could just be a part of the family area..where the whole family can relax and gather, and if anyone wishes, may pick up a good book to read..!!

insyaALLAH.. i really wish to have these book areas if not a library in my own home..:)

when will that be?

i don't really know..

but I'll keep praying..

insyaALLAHU TA'ALA.. :)

p/s: for the mean time, i'll learn to keep my books organized instead of being left lying around everywhere I go that really annoys my parents then, and now my hubby..erkzz..